bittersweet memoirs

Well.. I wish I’ve got a solution.

2011-08-26T17:55:00.000Z

It stresses me when he doesn’t score. It’s like all my life-time effort being poured giving advice are being put to waste. I’m always at my utmost level to set his priorities right and constantly tells him so,so that he would achieve and get good grades. Cause personally, the consequences is that his mom would put the blame on me and it’s not a pleasant thing. And it always turns out pretty ugly in the end. If and only if he endeavors the beauty of knowledge and devotes his time to just pour his time towards revising. It ain’t a bad thing afterall right? Despite all the encouragement, I’m glad to say he’s turning over a new leaf and it excites me. Excites me to see him work hard, to see him be successful, to see him just do well. Bottomline, I’ve done my part, so it’s his turn to do his and let’s pray for some good result. AMEN to that.

Messy Mind

2011-01-28T18:15:00.000Z

It's been a while since I last rant my thoughts apart from tumblr . Like here on blogger .

Anyhow, i've been thinking a whole lot lately . A lot you don't wanna stay in mind for a second . Alrightss.

I have tons of beautiful friends and close ones too recently and mind-blowing boyf to just listen me rant. AHA!

Kayss,i'm just thinking that people are changing lately,well as the world turns 360 degree,so does human right ?

& i'm done see-ing others pleasing the other party,like should you do so? HOLY MOTHER,NO.

In society today,you gotta learn how to be selfish and trust me in the end,nobody's gonna lend a helping hand.

And I myself have my own insecurities,trust me being a girlfriend is NOT an easy job! Especially when you're the jealous type like myself,then yeahh.

Like I remembered a few months back when I was single,HO HO,I was leading a goddamn easy life,I'm not easily hurt nor was I carried by this burden & thoughts about other girlies XD

My point is not to ask you to be single,even if you are,no big matter,you'll always have your kickass walks of life who cares about that tinnywinny bit of problemo you're having ;)

So,I was just constantly thinking and at one point,i told myself to just deal with the fact,be more optimistic about things and open up :)

The Script ; Breakeven

2010-05-24T15:23:00.000Z

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no

2010-05-22T17:08:00.000Z

SWAG-GER

SCARS

2010-05-21T17:21:00.000Z

Good Morning,everybody.

I would remain the originality of this blog & nevertheless i couldn't recall on how long since i last left this blog abandoned.I know i may be too selfish and being on tumblr,tumblrin',but guess here's the place i would spill out every thing that's been lurking.Deep shit you could say or worst chaotic,drama's that u wished never happen and been there,done that doesn't mean u always play safe.

My good friend of mine,~~NOT~~ blew things off today like literally.Like i've seen you're miserable side or yours every single day ? Quit playing your dramatic scenes & seriously if u wish to be the teacher's pet cause she couldn't afford one,then go ahead.Cause i wouldn't be a dirtlicker,so don't humor me,that's the least you do?Sounds a lot imtitation there,don't cha ? Speaking about integrity,so the very first thing you need to do now is stop pretending whom you're not.YOU are YOU and stop being others.PATHETIC to sum things up.

Day by day,we've been struggling over the fact that oneself constantly pressuring you on what.one.earth they're talking about ? Dealing about with sarcastic critism , anger , pretendous person within themself, endless major attitudes. I had enough of randomly taking a few steps to actually being concern of others.Im done (:

Being on a universal standpoint,seriously i need to shop badly,like take me out (:

a BLACKBERRY BOLD 9700 to make my day .

sweet sixteen

2009-12-02T04:51:00.000Z

this is what a swagger will do early morning

camwhore yaww bitch.:)

follow me on tumblr aite?

bye bye

2009-12-01T15:06:00.001Z

hey guys,i'm currently updating every thing on tumblr.lol.so meet me there aite?

so just click down here:):) thanks:D and link me or whatever,just don't spam:D

http://cherylkinnieslautner.tumblr.com/

transformers 2

2009-12-01T15:02:00.002Z

watched this today too kill time yaww:D

funny

2009-12-01T15:01:00.002Z

i know,the picture aint nice,but this is one of our picture tht we drew when we were almost drunk && ~~they~~ were stress up,lol! memories baby:)

anthr day yet to put on a smile back on my face

2009-11-27T15:16:00.000Z

dress,eyeliner,turqoise nail polish and a wallet,

my wedges [aint food] tht mummy bought for me as an early b-day gift.

yeap,shoez obsession,bought my wedges thr.

i explain further on my tumblr.so check tht out.

tumblr site

2009-11-26T14:43:00.000Z

a bunch of them started tumblr since ages ago.or maybe now only i knw about it?

u call it OLD-dated or wtvr,but i find it awesome+cool,and i might spend more time there too,but hey,i wont neglect my blog though,no intentions wt-so-evr.

so here's my link to my tumblr thingy:

http://cherylkinnieslautner.tumblr.com/

and just watched cyril on AXN,he's in KL baby :):):) awesome.

c ya round.and phew,worries ovr,dinner with th family was nice,great food and i met one of my senior,frnkily,i dont expect him to recognise,but he did.haha:P:P:P

yo dude.rip tht shirt off

2009-11-26T03:59:00.000Z

omg,MR.SHIA LABOUF,rip && burn th shirt of yours,would yah?

had breakfast a while ago,bread+egg.watch OPRAH and I SHOULDNT BE ALIVE on discovery.

such a loser i would be,gave up on readin biology,i told yah i cant revise right this vry moment.

and and i might move to TUMBLR.it seems a whole lot of fun && excitement.

i shall re-THINK tht alright?:D

do you knw what is bosan?

2009-11-25T09:04:00.001Z

so if you're asking me what th hell am i actually doing for th past 3 days of my so called freedom/holidays?

nothing other than heavy texting,munching,visiting the fridge and whatelse?tv,net,hi-fi.

nowadays i rarely sleep in the evening like i practice tht habit after school and i guess i'm use to the fact of waking up early every single day with the same old routine.

owh how i miss school now.at least we are updates with gossips.

and now?everything seems so silent,and agigated like there's no one on earth left.why?:O

and i might visit my aunt later in bangsar,so i guess u guys knw which hospital i'm going later.PANTAI hosp.:D yeap.

nothing severely happen ,it's some surgery my aunt have too go through regarding her womb.

&& i told my dad that i wanna cook spagetti,is tht something new/i never touch any off the kitchenware/tools before?

tht's not the first,if you're wondering.:P

apparently,i have and did:) but my dad said NOPE.

so there it goes,it's just the desire to do something useful aite rather than lazing around the house?

and it seems tht everyone's starting their tuition for the next yr and i havent,unfortunately,or am i lucky?

i guess i hafta start making plans already && dec is coming ,like next week.whee:):)

so meaning tht i have to stuck in tuition with the rest and cracking and more brain-storming on phy && addmaths:D

all ready && hyped-up.

alright,wanna draw && get some stuffs done to kill time.

till then.:)c ya around.;)

daugther of mia ong

2009-11-24T09:06:00.002Z

TAKENOTE: mia ong is currently no longer here.she's elsewhere.shifting allher belongings and get back on track.she cant go online and hasnt beenlogging in eversince friday.beat that.she doesnt reply yourcalls/messages because the only source now is her handphone whichdrives you insane cause her phone is dead/outta battery and she couldnt find her charger!tht's DOPE.i severely pity herMAFIA WARS ,abandon just like that.god bless you,miss ong!and anybodywants her new number,just contact me aite?tq.=) have a nice day

beauty baby.

2009-11-23T07:43:00.001Z

EDWARD ANTHONY MASEN CULLEN.:):):)

who doesnt know?the all-so-famous rob Pattinson.

i'm gonna die of boredom

2009-11-23T03:41:00.002Z

seriously,if u ask me to start studying/revising/hold a goddamn revision book,i will SPANK you,&& i mean it.

i'm just so effin lazy these days and i'm addicted to icy tower on fb.lame much?u judge.

woke up as early as 7.47a.m sharp.did normal routine what humans do every morning.

chew come crunches,ate some mee soup,watch csi:NY and OPRAH.:)

and fck,my left eye is currently screaming in pain.it's like hundreds of needles poking and now it's alright.just PHEW.

mummy said she's gonna do some shopping this friday and like,finally!but still,i cant wait for new moon.

&& i hafta take pictures,mainly for my passport.;););)

i've been saying this all along and perhaps,you're wondering,i'm siding TEAM JACOB enough.

no more questions ask,and watched twilight last night and i was busy being the spokesperson and explaining every single detail about it to mummy,tht's perhaps why she needs to read the book first before watching.

i'm currently obsessed with taylor lautner idk why.:P:P:P he's like a magnet,probably he just amazes me?
soon though,i'm gonna be a couch potato && dvd-hunting begins:)

cheerio

2009-11-21T17:56:00.002Z

so basically,yesterday's the lastday of schooling,i dont feel pretty much like it,though,in fact i knowi'm gonna miss a bunch of them.

so we shall just keep contact through outings,text messages,facebook and etc!:):):):)
so HAPPY HOLIDAYS,LOVELIES.:D:D:D

today we [the straight A's students for PMR headed down too DBKL AUDITORIUM]
and ba-da-bing,we got our rm500 cash but sadly,it's not in our hands YET.=(
but still,special thanks to YTL-ers.:)
i'm eagerly waiting for the whole year,and the next they said hafta wait till next yr to receive it.fck.
perhaps they don't know,tht we wanna use the cash for other purposes.dang!!!
but one thing for sure is tht the food there,especially the GRAVY is just awesome:) sedappppp.
i still havent think off any reasons too use the cash for.perhaps i might keep them or use it for SHOPPING SPREE.:):) what else?
perhaps the thought of rm500 is way way way better than only rm100?wtf.=S

so who wanna join me for BULAN BARU(new moon) next week?whee.:)
there's just too many of them on the list now && i'm glad tht i can still add people.
i cant wait for taylor lautner and th rest of the cast:):):)
they done a pretty good job this round.
venue:PAVILLION.
so see you guys there.
much love.ttfn!

p/s:currently reading make rainbows end by cecilia ahern:)

bowling :D:D:D:D

2009-11-21T07:09:00.000Z

so basically,went bowling after finals.

bowling arena at midvalley:):):)

the pouting babes.

mia,me

kashmira,me

me:):):)

BASKIN ROBBIN TIME.loving the strawberry flavour.yums!:)

weds-day!

2009-11-18T09:20:00.001Z

MARLEY && ME.

watched this in th chemistry lab && there goes all the watery eyes and not mentioning the exhilarating part too.i just like too see the effin cute puppies.

:):):)

they are just awhhhhhhhh.

and we baked cookies with my grandma's recipe.all chocs and we loved it!

the mixing&&grinding ,just delicious!

i just wished i can spare my free time for baking lessons,cause i love them rather than cooking.

whoevr my husband is for the future,i dont expect to eat out all day but i'll try my best now to make an effort to learn cooking,aite?

i've got a bad news for myself:the ECLIPSE ook went missing.spoof.vanish in thin air.this is just major annoyin,frustrating.

cause firstly,it aint my property.

and secondly,i dont mind spare another cash buying a new book back but it's just unfair though cause seriously deep down,i know ~~SHE~~ took the book.

just this strong intinct.FCK.

p/s:sorry kash,the eclipse book is not there.and i hope i can find whoever whom stolen it.i wish! && owh th baking was good!:)

u've missed it.bhahahaha.:P:P:P:P

something random

2009-11-16T07:10:00.003Z

texting session begins,almost sounded like hunting in every vamp stry and what else?i'm enjoying every single bit of the rain only when i'm at home:):):)

me:heydarl,it's lovey dovey when edward kisses bella.then irealised[awkwardness],after 14 hours of long sleep and the tought ofkissing edward was repulsive.WHY?she just gotten up from bed and shehadn't brush her teeth.lol.

kashmira:-----------------------ithink it's the part where she says she dont wanna go to school causeher aunt just came back from aussie

me:HONESTLY,icouldnt think off any btter way for you to go to school.it's harmlessperpetually.i shall see you after 3 days of joy i suppose.u shall missit,sadly.

kashmira:doyou know tht u are extremely good at persuading me to come to school?ishould bloody hell give you and award.fine,i shall make it a point tobe there on wednesday also.i'll take two days off then.

me[keeping to myself]:lazy bum!just get your arse and join in the fun!

p/s:sigh.anyway,i just finish NEW MOON in two days.

pp/s::i'm reading ECLIPSE in return while busy onlining and texting and owh not forgetting my PHYSIC peka for tomorrow.

ppp/s:i'mjust loaded with food lately from ice-creams tocereals,milk,chocolates,cranberries,&& junks more ofthem.

pppp/s:owh HAPPY 4*th BIRTHDAY MUMMY.loves.

just let bygones be bygones,shall we?muaxxie.

banana peel

2009-11-13T16:17:00.003Z

look what i've bought myself for the day?me ♥ ♥ ♥

i've never feel this fatigue for the last 2 months and i've never bath these late.[10.45pm]

fyi,i bathed thrice today cause i feel sticky,i hate to be && feel tht way.

i never gotten th chance to watch 2012 due to the queue and what else?we played bowling.

and it was effin' cheap,despite the losing,but still memorably,we had so much fun!:D

indicating i'm going there again th next round!hi-5.

there's this particular dude eye-ing,and i was like 'err,dude i knw you?'

unfamiliriaze to faces this round.

E.X.A.M.S,results you ask?.overall,it was okay,i managed to ace 8A's and a B.

B for what?PHYSICS.:P:P:P

finefine,i guess i hafta leave you guys here.more updates soon.later.

tired mode.out

2009-11-13T15:55:00.002Z

officially reading new moon.(:

p/s:check out ''Rihanna - Russian Roulette''.what happen to her voice?

funky revolution

2009-11-10T07:02:00.001Z

look what i found :D

deeparaya 09 was a blast

2009-11-10T06:44:00.000Z

kathleen roshene,me

amellia ong,me

divya bhullar,me

atiqah,me,kashmira with the sandwich.

us again with the fastest runner,deepa:)

us in our 4 BAKAWALI class.the noisy ones.and me with the white baju kurung.

divya,me,amellia,kashmira

divya,jaskiren,kashmira,me with the innocent face!

rosy cheeks me,and with the sarsi?haha.

us again.the fivesome,not.

us with ellyna moriera

smile darls.

yeap,the roundies are contributed to me.=D

-the end-:):):):)

me living as a BIPOLAR.

2009-11-09T08:42:00.005Z

there's been downpours,laughters,sorrows,innocent faces,&& even some with a blank face.

how do i overcome all this shiats?answer that that:food.chocs,and heavy eyeliners.

why i consume those?cause i rather not cut myself with a blade nor metal ruler.it's painful

some even born a star,&& born with the ability to outshine others.

but get real,till when you gonna fake and be somebody else?and lead your own life?

creativity,yeah i do love vintage,eccentric stuffs and perhaps cutie little things,i somehow dont see why does that bothers you now?

there's a gazillions reasons for me too hate you,i dont hate nor like you either.

i dont easily put a hatred towards others but curse yes.it's just an exception.

and flaunt it,some just say 'hey' and expects you to write a long message in return.

dont try to give in when you yourself cant speak up for yourself.

though now i realised that some are pretty petite themselves,the ones who's forehead has a huge ~~'LAME' and 'UNTHRUSTWORTHY~~' word .

everywhere ,there's this scenario that you cant even escape sometimes you pretty much fed up yourself.

move on,one deserves something for their hardwork and what's wrong with people being bias,selfish,ignorant and self-centered?

nobody born a perfectionista and you yourself shouldnt put where one is self obsessed and over highly into you .it disgusts me.

it's such a disgrace too mankind and i admit i'm a friend of yours,sadly.

i shall make a vow to not approve anymore strangers and i guess you know that i dont usually chat online unless i wanted too.but it'd be miracle if i do.:)

one thing for sure,dispersable sets and variety of boundless attitudes and characters tht we as humans potray.what is th utmost important thing here is tht,you meet and make friends every single day and it's like a burden at times cause u need to hold what we call, relationships and bonds.

at times,you have too take good care of a person's feelings tht u scarce and hide yours.

i dont usually do tht,and i definitely can burst at any time.

silly willy,i'm a ~~BIPOLAR~~.take note.

Déjà vu

2009-11-07T06:17:00.002Z

Déjà vu refers to a state where a person feels certain(cognitive judgment) that he or she has previously seen or experiencedsomething that is actually being encountered for the first time. It is believed the feeling corresponded to the memory of anunconscious daydream..

A French term used by psychical researchers to characterize thefeeling people sometimes have that some scene or experience in thepresent also occurred in the past. Déjà vu (already seen) is often coupled with déjà entendu (already heard). Through the years, many have related the feelings of déjà vu to the phenomenon of astral projection or out-of-the-body travel, when individuals apparently visit a distant place in an astral or etheric body during sleep. Déjà vu is also associated with fulfillment of a prior premonition of a forthcoming event.

More recently, déjà vu has been connected to experiences of reincarnation,when a feeling of prior knowledge is so strong that people feel sure itmust have come from a former incarnation.

Feelingsof déjà vu are rarely evidential or even reliable. Scenes in thepresent may only appear familiar because they contain some elementconnected with a past experience and re-activate the sensation offamiliarity. Psychologists have characterized the phenomenon of falseremembering as "postidentifying paramnesia."

me love

2009-11-06T15:55:00.000Z

ROBERT THOMAS PATTINSON!!!

photo of the day.(:

2009-11-06T07:00:00.002Z

craving for it now!=(

2009-11-05T08:14:00.000Z

my usual starbucks flavour:caramel frappp!:D i'm ordering one later.muchacha.

say what?

2009-11-04T15:03:00.001Z

p:s/lord,get me outta this crappie shits that's revolving me lately,all the burdens and liars.
all the hardships i've worked and twisted words people say.
it all happened to quick and i dont even know when && where it first started.
i shall continue the next time.gotta hit my maths book with my sleepy eyes and i got no heart towards it for now.
i shall try.i will.

screams luck baby!

2009-11-02T08:13:00.001Z

me before going to school(:

all so witty in the morning before physic paper!

btw ,tht is joanna's drawing.and she's an artist!:D

couldnt have feel any happier for physics.i got 45/50 for paper 1.wheepiedoo!

just more complications today in school.sigh.=(
and tomorrow i have chemistry exps!heck,there's 21 to memorize.god bless me.(:
and one more,i will be getting back my bm,addmaths && chemistry 2 tomorrow.
aite,gotta eat my lunch now yeah at 4 and start revising.

hot soup

2009-10-30T06:01:00.000Z

yeap,u go the message right,we are definitely in hot soup today.

WHY?

cause there's a list of names who are suspected copying,like wtf,yes my name is in it.

it seems that the names were handed to the principal and they will take appropriate actions towards it.

how is that possible that we copied during addmanths?aint that the paper that most students arent able to complete it or take most of the time pressing the dang calculator?

and plus,i was sittin next to the teacher's table and i copied?

wow,what a god job the teacher implies.

there will be some investigations going on.let's just cross our fingers .

blackmailed and getting cursed by the teachers themselves aint a pleasing thing to hear once u start your very first exam that day.

and for the next exam,if any of the students were caught red-handed then that's the end of it.

the invigilators will never give a fck about you anymore.suspended from doing exam/school?

for sure during exams,things like borrowing stuffs,or asking for the time are surely something that is inevitable.

the best solution of it is to put a huge clock in front of the class.

save our very last names and it's always the front/smart classes get the blame?

where are we too put our faces?

hit the road with la sallians

2009-10-30T05:36:00.000Z

so this very particular day we hit the road with the la sallians.it aint tht bad nor tht boring as i expected earlier.

but the duration and timing is kinda longgg and heck tht week itself i had exams.

it was from 8 till 4.30pm.so u count yourself how freaking long that took us.

and they were actually putting some perverted movie on the bus?but who gives a damn.

it was more like a patriotism kinda trip.

but seriously as my sixteen years of staying here in malaysia i've never step into this places before.so why not take this opportunity to do so?and the best part,we dont even need to pay a dime for it.

(:(:(:(:

highlights of the day:

~~tentera diraja malaysia~~
~~muzium negara~~
~~all the PM's memorial(:~~
~~galeria perdana~~
~~tugu negara~~

me,divya

sharmaine,divya,me,kathy,enbah

us again.hmphhhhh.but these time it's the shooting scene.wicked.

aint that historical enough?the sculture/building/or whatsoever it is called.

yes,enbah i know,you go with the 'ampun tuanku'

enbah,sharmaine,venessa,mia,me,divya,sue li

yes us unity together.=D

i love the background for this place.=D

us convent girls.:)

ps: more photos on facebook.check em' out.

totes wicked.

2009-10-27T15:13:00.003Z

today was a perfect day of silence,NOT.ohm.

we pratically get disturb by sound pollution,you say,even the time we had to do our freaking finals.urghhh.*constipated face*

those form 3 with their fashion show platform and i was like what?counting addmaths,and singing to the hits they were putting.(:

couldnt care les,but it pretty much was a distraction too me.heck.

and yeah,they reshuffled our position in class for the first time,phew thank lord i was still stuck at my original place next to the blinding wall && shiny rays of sunlight.awhhh.

the main reason of reshuffling was to cut down or minimise the amount of copying,passing papers,talking,winking,you name them.

do's && dont's are strictly obeyed during our exams.

i hated the part where the sunlight hits my face and all i could see is big blueblack dots.loads of them.

and errr,i taught we could actually have some chit-chat after the paper ended,and so much of the guessing and what not?we couldnt even have a small talk.

not even a small tinny-winny sound && damn we are like grounded to our own sits and start taking out a book or eventually some doze off.

what a perfect idea?i was hitched.cause i was explaining to some bunch about lens.

and doosh,what else my name was being called?proudly i just smiled.=D

that's my day.

me love counting

2009-10-24T15:40:00.004Z

just zipped up some pepsi && fries while counting and watching hollow man 2.

i definitely cant stay in one place for today.and i wasnt paying 101% on my addmaths.

but i managed too do a few chapters,the back and long ones.(:

what an accomplishment?but still,it's better than nothing.heh

and one more,my leg still hurts like shiats.it was more like a preg woman.

and to those who i didnt answer their call for the day:major sorry cause i put silent,as always.

so just beep me kayh?

current ringtone:hotel room by pitbull.

okay,back to basics,me wanna go count,wanna join?

mojo sweetie pie

2009-10-23T05:28:00.006Z

[history paper 2 && chemistry 2] : done for the week.(: habis,over !!!

i was just thankful cause the essay part which definitely consume more marks was do-able(:

countdown: 10 papers done &&& 12 more to go.i know.god knows my pain.and YOU here.

wondering what's the picture all about?it's my pretty pretty light green lens.

AMETHYST couldnt work best on me,so i decided too choose that colour.=D

yesh,u might think tht i gain weight or some said i loose?

but heck,too me i think i've gained a few kg's.it's devastating.well i'm just guessing.:S

morning,noon,night,supper?day and night i'll be dating books && food && my cell obviously.

let's do a quick check what revolves me at home.

i didnt mention except the part that i got freaked out about it in school.

a dog,yes a white one got stuck in between my gate and hours later it died in front of my house compound.like HOW?

it was more like a freaky situation and my mum claims that i'm the one at home and why not i lend a hand and stuff.like wth?

and yeah i got pretty touched by hearing its wailing and hey,my neighbour helped to release it.

daddy && his friend carried it and did some stuffs.so i told him to be careful in case of RABIES.how dope?

move on.swollen eye,toenail bleeding and now?my left leg hurts.

but all hail my bio-ray bandage.and it's worth the forty bucks.heh.(:

gtg do some addmaths.=D buh-bye for now.

p/s-check out jennifer's body's trailer.rawr.

faqqabitch

2009-10-20T14:32:00.001Z

i'm back bitches too haunt you.(:
exams aint over,gotta step up the heat.
bring it on.lovies.;D

happy diwali dearies.

2009-10-17T15:16:00.001Z

happy 2009 diwali.=D

unstable

2009-10-16T07:34:00.004Z

u knw what bothers me much now?
my dad is going ~~LONDON~~ ,heck no,it's GERMANY for three fucking weeks.
grhhhhhhh.=[

mood out

2009-10-15T15:28:00.005Z

current song over && over my head continously:NATALIE[GOING CRAZY]
i was gifted today.
it aint pleasing.
&& the gift i had was migraine.
panadol aint being friendly towards me.and bloody hell,i consumed 2.
results:all worn out and fatigue.
-end of life-
and worst comes to worst,i had a noseblock.=(
&& best part about it,i didnt study.
secondly,i went to school and only 14 were present,as expected.
thirdly,tomorrow is a holiday!
=D
what else?off to bed.

2009-10-14T14:09:00.002Z

omfg.sixteen ads in a day?countless.

yeap,that's the amount of people adding me eversince christ.

okay,i'm just over exaggerating it too much.

phew,i pity those who were in school today.getting scolded from mrs.ong for not completing addmaths hwk is seriously hilarious.

owh,she's my grandmother btw.

i practically survived since i finished it earlier.

spend the whole day chit-chatting over the phone for hours.yesh.(:

it was fun although u meet them every single day without fail,you still have something to talk and laugh about.

mum labelled me as TALKATIVE,and threatens to actually cut the line off.

i would rather see her do it instead of just saying it,an continued for the next twenty minutes.

i am not making any first moves,i just let him do what he needs to do first.

i dont wanna make it a habit like what kash said.

but i seriously had loads of fun laughing with this dude,playing chasing and catching2,dont yah think so?

and crocs.it's cute.

i know you may think it's like some 3 years old kinda thing,but it makes me happy.

just his presence alone.

this dude outta nowhere asked,could you love me?

one word:LAME.

4 words:GO GET A LIFE

p/s:kash,just bluetooth me the picture.pretty pwease?loves.

crack heads

2009-10-13T16:54:00.004Z

he's more addictive than this liquid.ahhhhhhhhh.=D

i am officially skipping school starting today.

toss head.had fun.

school?tormentation,pure pain,fun.blabbers.gossips.

i felt pissed see-ing others get so tensed up and white hairs all over.

what about people who thinks ur innocently dumb?it aint something huge.

typically,it aint major.=D

look here,i dont fucking care and give a damn about your whereabouts.

perhaps,u've improved.to be a better person.no more buggable person.

and dont try to hard to be and look like somebody elses'.

just because one had that special,funky stuffs,you wanna like go grab it and have the same stuffs as tht person.oh jeez,let me tell you,it's a CRIME.*screams*

holly molly,your existence doesnt even leaves a mark significantly.perhaps a sign tht leaves a bad scar behind.

and dolls?scary.dont do tht fuggly face any more.a mother of all imitation.

a model who is short,thick lips,hairy legs?

FAILURE.reject.reject.reject.

attention seeker.tell me who doesnt loves attention?

especially people aiming you for the good stuffs,like duhh.

&& they remember even the slighest thing you do although tht scene wasnt so pleasing.pfttt.

but still?even a day if u're surrounded by unknown people who finds a spot to get closer to you,just dont give them a grin.(:

u'll definitely find a spot somwhre.over the rainbows.

as long as they dont trouble me,that would do.

p/s-yesh i think i'm secretly falling for you.ahh.

matter of time.

2009-10-11T14:39:00.002Z

i am fucking retardedly,obnoxiously,happily blank.for now.
goodnight.

pervert.

2009-10-10T15:21:00.005Z

tell me,would you wanna wear this?

dude/duddettes:
[hooked up with the convo when i was playing UNO on facebook]
i already had my shower and get my hair all shaved up.
oh really?i taught u had your feather dusted already.

owh,so i bet you see my implications while playing.i was just trying to play peacefully.
off.off.off.

knock,knock.

2009-10-10T07:12:00.003Z

yesh,me with my mummy's fon.

today is just another boring day.i had no idea what to do.

i could do is laze around and spend hours on the PC and sleeping.

studying aint a major thing for me now.perhaps i'll do that later.

procrastinating is already instill in me once teacher announce that exam's will be postpone.

yea bragging about what would i think.it sucks.like end it quick.

yawns.more yawns.thrice yawns.just yawns.

i would love a new fon for my birthday.cause current one sucks.

btw,this is dedicated to another bitch of mine.

the corner,middle,front,back and everywhere.

best of luck.mwahx.

medicure anyone?

(:

2009-10-09T07:53:00.002Z

Doctor to his lady patient: You look terribly weak and exhausted! Are
you having your meals three times a day as I have advised?
Lady replied: Doctor, I thought you said three males a day.

oh baby,it aint a freedom day yet

2009-10-08T06:14:00.002Z

**Hey, little chica from Guadalupe**

finally i bought my 17 mag and credit.yesh!!
as i was busy paying money i realised one fact tht children these days dont pretty much care about what they consume.

whether it'll be breakfast,lunch,dinner,supper.or anytime.
why?
because range 7-10 mainly buy junks,slurpees,and carbs.and they cut my queue.idiots.

it's like u've been standing there for quite some time just to buy some stuffs and imagine they could do tht?ishh.

i am glad that they actually postponed the exam after deepavali.so i am thankful.

but jeez 4 days of end year sure thing causes my brain too exhaust and 3 hours of sleep.tht was major hell.

suprisingly,high amount of caffeine makes me awake,but i loses my focus a lot.

and er,english exam,was a little confusing,seriously and let's see,physics paper was like urm,yeah,u knw tht kinda thing.it was just a plain sheet of tough questions.

i think you get my point here.

got more stuffs to catch up for instance addmaths,history and u knw what,just loads more.

i got a whole lot of list of acts coming up right after end year and on the last week of school is NEW MOON.like duhh i am definitely gonna watch with the buds!(:

i am still thinking.i am tired of thinking.this causes brain damage.

and sigh,i am already missing tuition and the lepak buddies.

and oh i miss heavenly tea.

wish i had superpowers!!!

2009-10-04T14:27:00.003Z

p/s-we had so much fun.divya,me.

my very first gift of the week is maths 2 and bm essays.what else could i say?

best of luck to everyone.

god bless.(:

god bless the durians.owh lovely.

nymphomania

2009-10-02T15:58:00.002Z

yes,tht's my title and i'm spreading the lurvey word to everyone.

cant help it.

the major reason i didnt blog cause i didnt feel like it,perhaps more to study shiats and even the tv wouldnt play a role now.

i tried hard sipping && taking coffee,endessly it aint gonna work on me,sadly.

it didnt hypes me up either nor makes me stay awake,but instead i felt rather sleepy than before.shoot you coffee,now who's my next victim?

have you ever feel like calling and selling your soul to the devil?

duhh,of course i didnt and never thought about it.

everyone's presssuretized,yesh my end year is around the corner and i left 2 more days to cover everything.

somehow,i get this strong intention and feelings everytime when i wake up in the morns.

heart beating at an alarming rate,i usually break out a sweat now,quite often.

i get super resentful this couple of days.why oh why?

i knew something was bugging me but the main fact about it is it's not about exams.hah!

it was really hard to say goodbye and just leave some places tht left a lot of sweet memoirs though.

oh,i was dared.and i did it.shhhhhhhhhh.how brave could i get?u judge.

he looks nerdy,but who cares?junkjunkjunk.

i love,mainly cursing everything that doesnt goes along the way.

girls impersonate fags.vice versa.

oh yeah,how about those who acts all not knowing any shits happening && nods to every single word u say?

i dont wanna tag in,,in any games ur plannin,or merely even close to hide and seek?

u plan,make,and play yourself kayh?even if u could,go play far away.

even if u knew the world is turning against u,but ur still shameless and inherits the ''i knw it would happen someday,and what choice could i possibly have?''

''i had no other choices but to bitch about myself to attract the crowds''.

'i love the attention and look when everybody listens to me''.

how infamous you could get.or perhaps,as i said go get drunk.go get your margarita.

p/s-sweetie.you're not.

rawr.

2009-09-27T14:13:00.002Z

i'm afraid of dying after i've watch the trailer of 2012.

like why die now?

i've got long more way to live,enjoy and persuade my dreams.

get a hubby,kids.

this is not the end of the world.or perhaps someday,or sooner somehow the world might end.

like the dinasours time.ancient.

but if this is true,tell me,in 3 years time,where will i stand?

happy birthday,darlz!

2009-09-27T13:48:00.006Z

HAPPY ENAM-BELAS BIRTHDAY,KISHYANI SIEW.

birthday girl.

kishy,me.and my gift over there.

lc,mia,dharnieshaa,me

whack all the sundae's now.(:

bathroom 1

bathroom 2

mia,me

there we go again,with the roundies.

the 3-somes.

wondering what are we looking at?it's actually a frame.lame,i knw.

babyside 1

babyside 2

the omg-ness face of us

sam,raji,kishy,mia,me with the peace sign again.

p/s-thanks kishy for the invitation and sorry guys for making you to the kids section.

aint in the mood to revise

2009-09-25T15:26:00.002Z

peace
faith
hope
love
joy

2009-09-24T14:42:00.003Z

i am ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ -ing the top.

anything gotta do with vintage,me love.

so u know now what to get me for my birthday.take your time in choosing.

perhaps u can load me with more of this.(:

and i'm trying my very best to get every damn thing eco-friendly.(:

get this right dude,i aint ur mannequin okay?

daddy bought 11 super chio goldfish.

fish///fishes?does this even matter?

screams 'VINTAGE ROCKS'

2009-09-23T16:21:00.001Z

i'm a pig.i do.

now who wanna join for supper?

treasures.

2009-09-23T15:34:00.002Z

daddy brought back some oh-so-yummy chocs.so dont mind see-ing me all pumped up and wobbly after the school break.

okie,somehow revising biology is something tht i do not adore now,altho i pretty much love it last time.but still,it's one of my fav subject.

i was day-dreaming the whole afternoon and oh,i painted my nails.hot red.

aint the pups cutie pie?unfortunately,it aint mine.

i wanna have one,.but mum said it would be too messy && later the pups will not be well organised.maybe it's the asthma.

kinda like promoting the pups for a while.:)i adore it.

bloody rich asses,having so many pups at once,isk.no doubts he has 4 mercz.

it's like he just own a masage place in his house,&& plus it's not even a centre or smth.wth.

blardy annoys me is tht if u were to lie/cheat,just do it properly or have u just forgotten the fact tht u already made a clear statement that u're a liar?

true indeed,u fascinates people with ur attempt to draw attention,but pur-lezz,aint falling for it.

so what you gonna do next?create more hot-topics and woe the crowd?

in fact,why dont u just work as a publisher?or maybe editor or perhaps a paparazzi?

u make millions.totes bothering me now.

it sounds so cheesy when you says stuffs tht apparently makes people go 'ahhhh',u're a rich kid.

as a matter fact,you looks like one,but perhaps you shouldnt boast about tht.cant u just create a low-profile?people will see the brighter side of you better.mwahx.

aint creating conflict or stuffs,just wanna pour out what i see in everyday life.

i'm in turmoil now.

T-T-F-N.

exhausted

2009-09-22T15:35:00.002Z

p/s-i think i can see veron&& divya's condo from here.

i wish i could fly off the sky and get my jumpsuit on.

go away,intruder.

2009-09-20T15:13:00.002Z

my mum is currently stalking me as much as she can from another lappie through my sis's FB.

finally i get to trim my bloody thick hair && cut it for 3 inches.yay!
bought stationary & books
celebrate R-A-Y-A with the fly,how dope
texted like a drug addict,no it's insane,i was in an unconsciousness state
felt guilty for not revising,so i dated MATHS at night
met kishy at the saloon(: and thanks for the early bday gift!muaxxiee

even when the sky is falling down.

2009-09-17T09:18:00.004Z

i swear i'll kill and shout at anyone now.
i'm just fcking pissed at this very moment,
reason-someone stole or accidentally took my calculator.
like it's like a burden to me now,hello,i need it for the holidays?
and how am i suppose to count?ishhh.this sucks.
i have too buy a new one,like immediately.money wasted just like that.
i don't lose stuffs easily and now.but why at this very moment?
is this where G-O-D wants to test how patient i could be?
it's pity to see someone being used by others for their own self.
she/her has been very selfish lately.i've noticed ever since a year earlier.
pathetic you.go rot in hell.
like she's making use of my other friends,even though i aint close or some shit like that.
like she could be expel from school and stuffs?
and you dont even have the tendency to say a simple sorry,or admit your mistakes.
you dump your friends when u had new ones coming in.
see how people can be really destructive towards others,you portay that.

p/s to mia-sorry la M-A-C and MNG is my surrogate mother okay?
pp/s-i've been struck like durain runtuh.yahuuda.(:

hakunamatata

2009-09-15T14:30:00.005Z

i'm already making an effort to study how much i can.

absorb as much as i could,but after a point,i stop.

i took the initiative to do so,but i cant resist the temptation to online.yesh,it's a major pain to kill boredom.

so this coming raya holidays,i'm gonna plan what to do and be a nerd,a mere one.

settle some stuffs and ka-boosh,i just hope i wont flung my end year.

i am still thinking about crashing poeple's house during raya.cause i dont really visit people's home,normally i would just go to my daddy's bossy's homie.(:

dont worry anis,i dont mind about anything else,i just want to makan!

i am trying so bloody hard to play MAFIA WARS.i am still a beginner,so it will take time la right?

it's like learning addmaths in the first place,the combination of blurry face and invisible question marks everywhere.

sooner i'll get the whole concept about it,once i'm free to do so.

it's funny how sometimes someone likes you,but they rather not show it.

they hide and keep it to themself but somehow u realise that he watches you and deny to others that he's not.

he gave you a shot of his sweetest smile,and at times u ponder,that seems to be a similar smile that he wore everytime.

he woes and praises about you to his friends,but he did nothing,not even try to step an inch to get to know u better.

i dont understand boys language specifically at times.guide me.

i love you,chem!

2009-09-14T15:39:00.002Z

i am suffering from something u call 'dementia'..

hey not too worry much about it,maybe i was just too tired to manipulate things around me.

i get pumped up easily and rapidly sleepy most of the times.

holly molly,i was dating chemistry and shits,i just realised that's a lot to cope up and memorize.

salts?urgh,aint it only specifically one of them?the type of salts we used everyday.NACL?

no i was wrong,there were gazillions on the charts.

oh god,just shoot me.

i was struggling to memorize and yes,i did it.but as i said earlier,i had this disorder,so i tend to lose memory fast.

caught up with this on the phobia list.anyone has this Genophobia- Fear of sex?

haha.i want too.plans are up?well at least 2 babyboys?adorable ones!(:

yes,we were acting like plain morons after teacher said we were going to LA SALLE during physics class,nobody wouldnt care less about paying attention to tad?

smell the fun?smell us!

beauty sleep

2009-09-13T15:04:00.000Z

i.yes i,me.

need some beauty sleep.

goodnight!

the lamest thing

2009-09-11T15:53:00.003Z

it's funny how others sees you as your 'threat'.
a major pain,and owh well,since i'm labelled as her most listed bitch,i'll just take all the fame.
the lamest shit she told and it was passed on to me 'i wanna introduce you to my new bf,but i know you're kinda close to cheryl.'
that's not about it,she said this too'i want too but i scared she[me] will steal her bf'.hahahaha.
i was laughing all the way.pathetic little bitch scoring her way.
well,this is what they do when they have nothing else to say.
dudettes,just confront me,okay?
dont act all-so-innocent,NOT,in front of me.
the littest sin of all meets pathetic little bitch?who WINS?

enemy for the day[argentum nitrate]

2009-09-10T14:38:00.003Z

p/s-thanks saranya for the lovely braides.♥ ♥ ♥

yesh,i had a pretty bad day at the chemistry lab.

the strong intuition to mix up all the chemicals went perfectly awesome!=D w.i.c.k.e.d

and tchr didnt even warn us to wear gloves.and i suppose not too,since the concentration werent that concentrated,it was more to diluted.

so wtf la kan?i was happily playing and dooosh,recess time,my hands were all brownish,they were light at first and it turns darker later on.

it's sick,i hate you,argentum nitrate.

i was rather going back to the old memories,we were already giving a bad impression in the school bus,nevertheless,acting like such hooligans at the restaurant and at the roadside.

well,these friends,i made and i met years back just made my day even happier.:)

you guys knw who u are.awhhhh.

with the row-row your boat,london bridge,twinkle stars,hickory dickory dock,and loads more other songs just reminds me of pre-school.

how happy and care-free life could be?play all day,never have to face the stressful and deal obstacles && challenges in life.

i had fun walking today.for some reasons.

btw,happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to kashmira.

happy birthday to you.*claps*

happy sweet 16-teen,darls.lubby.♥ ♥

bite heads off :S

2009-09-09T14:51:00.003Z

current most used word,O-M-G.omg this and omg that.

i've been traumatised lately.

as i was doing my MATHS just now,i was entirely focusing 101% on it,the yawning and the scratching head part is not included.

T-I-L-L

i heard someone calling out for me,but dont get me wrong,i dont see things,as in white,dark,whatever colours it appears cause i havent experienced them myself.

and toowhat it seems to be a small,timid,tiny screeching && humming sound.

some supernatural stuff?

now i'm starting again with it.paranormals,uuuhhhhhhh.

i aint gonna freak myself out.and i didnt tell anyone about this and yeah you,yes the one who's reading now,knew what the hell happen.

so if you have something to say about it,just hook me up on the line,kay?*smoochies*

i try not make it dominate me entirely.

okayh,this is rare.i dont wanna experience or go through these creepy,unhomosapienly stuff.this freaks me out.no.

i'm out.

i've tried forgetting,but god guide me to pass obstacles in life.

2009-09-08T15:20:00.004Z

yes.i screwed up my english oral yesterday.

am i pissed about it?aparrently,i do,but now i'm over it.

title[people's bad habit] (:

i dont understand the fact that some people always do orals about negative stuffs,dont you sometimes see the brighter side of life instead of killings,drugs,bf's?

i taught i get rid of yeah,him.

i had this strong feelings that i will get pass him easily,aint that the biggest lie?

i always do this,ty to forget some things that i think && try to prove that i can do it,and it turn out i cant never pass through it.

sometimes,i wonder what's the perfect recipe gaga-ing over someone you might not even look && turn too for an answer?

and in return,you'll turn completely blank and as though you're looking more like a mere idiot.

why oh why?they are some complicating humans.more likely difficult than studying a whole bunch of formulae's//////

yesh,i felt like pouring down at times when i hear about this,people blaming me for their fckup breakups.

like u're off a relationship now,just get over it sweetie litlle bitch.

i'll think twice now on giving anyonemy number and it should be done on a regular basis.

now it aint a lie,i'm sorta petrified for end year now.someone guide me.

GOD,i need your guidance and help me to manage my time,get me off this sicko problems.

ahhhhhh!i voluntereed to teach lemon zemon addmaths for his SPM paper!;D

the final reckoning truth.i am still waiting.

here we come,BASKIN ROBBINS!=D

2009-09-06T09:43:00.003Z

thanks babe for the so awesome day!=D

we laughed,ate,ran,packed,jiggled all about baskin robbin.

there's this babyboy who's loves attention && playing around people's stuffs.

it wasnt prudent for him to act so chilidishly.

i've never seen anyone who's been so patient all this while and being oh-so-protective over her babybrother.no,i was wrong.she hates him!

if i were to have a babybro like that,i'll just hang myself or dump him out.

i wasnt in the mood to eat the whole day,get this right,i'm not fasting!

but still i didnt have the urge to eat and today i ate only my breakfast and dinner.

sitting in the car for 45 minutes finding a place for breakfast wasnt very appealing,the fact is i cant sit quietly at a place unless i was force too under a certain extend.

daddy drove all the way to genting klang and landed at setapak!wtf.

does BR counted as lunch too?=.=

skin it alive.

2009-09-04T16:46:00.004Z

it wasnt severe and i met one dead that i knew it will somehow happen someday.

and well it did!

how upsetting.

by the look at my dad's face.

i think he'll be furious and sad about this.

i first texted my mum later my dad about it.

sudden dead or perhaps the litlle boy didnt eat for days?months?

i've been with him for the past few months or a year already.

but i miss feeding him.i had no idea how old he was.///

so it was a small gathering and funeral for him.*stares*

it wasnt a grand one since only a few of em' knew he existed.

but still,i was the one who feeds him,will he haunt me?

oh well,i miss you my fish!

yes my golden cuppa fish,MOJO.(:

sweet little honey.

2009-09-04T14:31:00.002Z

finally i get to pen down what i gotta say that revolves around me lately.

sarcasm[thnks to my perfect bitches at home,&& i werent able to online]

but thanks to my lovely hunnays too for the awesome day.

i had good,awesome,miserable,dead,sick,repulsive news.

the most shocking one was yesterday.

oh god,how could you create such human who is super emotionally inside and S-H-E[yes,my loves] been going through so much of pain,tears and broken hearts.

she doesnt deserve to be treated off like this,okay?

school.yes the very first day of school&lessons,and much quiter environment is still the same old habits that i've been going through througout the year.

homework piling up,and urk,she's back.should i scream my head off right this very moment?

oh just a small shriek?

of figdeting and shivers all around?

yeah be me,say me,do like me.

sitting in front in class now aint pleasing enough.my two so called supporters,grip,or just plain classmates been a pain in the butt!

should i be self-centered and be major selfish?

thanks to the,.i'll be lonely.

every single day i'll be finding someone to sit next to me just to basically,ACCOMPANY ME.

and how about liars in my class?

they wouldnt change for the better though.

why?

ATTITUDE.

who takes cab 2 && fro to tuition?yes,me.

only on thursdays.(:

do i feel scared?////// nope,i dont.

dad && mum been worried much about the mode of trans 'm using lately.

i've been using a lot of them practically this yr,well i learn from the pro's.

i've been.urm..hot-tempered,sensitive,and my anger strikes a lot lately,mostly at home.

i hate being call in the middle of my sleep,doing hommmie stuffs,and what else,when you need help,they arent there for you.

i do,indeed understand that everyone's tired,but heck,arent we suppose to like,stay along and help each other.

or maybe it's just me?being me.

truly,madly happy!

2009-08-31T14:24:00.004Z

current techno addict...satisfaction by benny benassi

old techno song,but still i'm in love with it.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

yeah,think again if you havent check your undone homework.

what's bothering you the most now?addmaths?physics?chemistry?'

owh,btw happy 52nd independence MALAYSIA.

merdeka greetings to everyone who texted and send me mails about it.

well mummy took us out to midvalley,like finally.

i learned a lot about the people around,there's this indon dude who was staring like he's gonna bite && rip me into pieces,but i just look and gave him a blank smile.

despise the fact that i had no idea what were they thinking about.

mother's who are rather irresponsible sat with their small little kiddies and even babies on the floor.

look here,it's super filthy and yeah,how many germs accumulated there?

then wipe it all over your kiddies?

this reminds me about the sight where foreigners came over near my school ,basically they use the church area,totally UNSAFE.

last day of sale hunnayyyy.i've already done my shopping,and i cant say i spend ZILCH during the holidays!!

how's your monday?

well,the awareness about the inluenza A is not working much,.

you can even count how many humans using that sicko mask.

ahhh,this pleases my eyes,i saw too many,uncountable hunkies there.

(: awhh man,they were more like eurasians!♥

p/s-to all my form5 dudes,babes,hunks,lovelies,best of luck for trials tomorrow.god bless you guys and it's maths for your first paper.=D

pp/s-a very big sorry towards the dude who serves me drink,i lose my temper towards them.pms-ing.

2009-08-30T14:25:00.003Z

i've been like...depressed for a a few days.this doesnt sound too good.

i've been wanting and longing to go out,like i'm rotting at home.

i dont do good in exaggerating,but well this is the fact.

i am.............happy.but still,i find something is missing.

oh well,i think i need th nature of BOYS here.

like kick out all the boys-toys aside.they dont do good.

cousins came over last night.

did some chit-chatting and oh boy,suren u gotta get over the fact that you're already here and tht she's not able to go ur hommie.

little boy,u should be grateful tht ur mummy is here and i think she's the best momma.

skipped the part where she asks you to do the chores,study hard messages,and even when it comes to cash.

boy,u work really hard on saving,dont cha?(:

keep it up.

when it comes to tuition on sundays,like aint it a family day?

and everyone's busy doing their shopping spree,me stuck at tui?

this gotta change,and yes,i am happy that i skipped tuition today.

being able to do what-so-ever thing i want.

i'm being LAZY.that's a word exists on everybody.

personally,i didnt knw i could be a lazie bum these holidays.ya-ba-di-du.

and just now in the evening,i was busy printing some pictures.and yeah,since the ink is filled up now,i get to print wtv shits.

this is great,but i'm clueless watta do with the pictures.bahahaha

okay,i'm out.

tkcr,hommies.

depressed

2009-08-28T05:29:00.002Z

guess how long i've survived!

2009-08-27T15:36:00.000Z

I was born on a Thursday and since my birthday..

I've been living for 15 years

I've been living for 188 months

I've been living for 821 weeks

I've been living for 5,747 days

I've been living for 137,938 hours

I've been living for 8,276,314 minutes

I've been living for 496,578,843 seconds

I've breathed more than 78,333,396 times!

I've blinked my eyes more than 83,033,396 times!

My heart has beaten more than 579,341,980 times!

chicka-boom boom

2009-08-26T15:44:00.003Z

joelle,divya,me

divya,me.[omg,i love this shit]

joelle,veron,divya,me,belrine

haha.divya carrying belrine.

paired up,divya&joelle,me&veron,olivia and belrine at the top

family tree.=D

make me a happy lil' girl again,could you?

2009-08-25T04:20:00.003Z

i'm not in a happy mood.

i have tuition from 2.30pm till 7.45pm.

i dont mind about tht.the fact is everything went upside down.

like in a MESS?

everything's so not organised and plan like how the way it should be.

my nails aint corporating well TOO.

this makes me sick.

my battery's flat like super fast.

how about the alarm?i woke up like super late today.

oh well,maybe today's so not my day.

anyway,i love the song in my blog.<3

oh btw,i finally finish my 8 essays.i'm G-L-A-D.

mixture of cough flavour throughout AUGUST

2009-08-24T14:59:00.004Z

i remember this.being a security was hectic.

somehow,i miss div's and veron's playground today.=D

i love the tools && apparatus there.it's good to workout there if u dont have a gym or the threadmill at home.

my condolences to you,hunnay.

2009-08-22T15:46:00.006Z

TARANJEET KAUR SANDHU

i'm sorry babe about your total loss.it's hard to accept the fact that your dad is gone.

F-O-R-E-V-E-R.....

it was like hours ago u asked me to take u out during the holidays.

and i ttly AGREED??!!
i missed you.

it's hard to find a person who is deeply strong inside.

u were like more of my elder sistah last yr.

telling me this && that.

i miss the way u went over to the window and shocked the life outta me in your room.

i miss those times we played && went running under the rain together.

we used to hang out at the mamak and ur silly willy jokes and faces!!!

i can still claerly remember u asked me why i havent grow?haha.

and the stuffs we used to gossip && criticize how perverted one could be.

i miss the fact tht u whined a lot about not going to starbucks everytime we hang out.

&& i miss the fact that sometimes you annoys me to the maximum.

and i want you && the rest of the groupie to come to back too our old tuition.=D

may your dad R.I.P.

GODBLESS.

they made my day.(:

2009-08-21T06:56:00.004Z

what's the best part about celebrating independence day in school and not at DATARAN MERDEKA//even BUKIT JALIL?

you dont have to travel far?no,you're wrong.it's a ttly whole environment and atmosphere that you dont see outside.

how many of us actually decorates our home?car?and even classroom?

it's not a habit that malaysians potray now and even too busy to do them for one reason,they dont even instill the patriotic spirit in them.you cant only see decorations being held in school.

looking back at what we actually did in school?we sang songs loudly with our national flag held on our hands,and BELINDA did well on becoming the forth primeminister.(: welldone.

FRENETIC we....

i know gazillions would eventually support the westerns but why not our own country?at times,i felt the same,buying imported goods,comparing here and overseas?

but deep down,i still <3>

voices in my head

2009-08-19T14:15:00.002Z

it's been a boring day ever not mention the heaps of homework.=(

running around and chasing teachers for their signatures was tormenting

/////// that does loses weight?we're looking almost like an idiot around the school.

i was just flipping through the papers today and i saw a whole list of fears.

spotted those which are related too me.

autophobia[fear of being alone]
trypaphobia[fear of injections]
tonitrophobia[fear of thunder]
agliophobia[fear of pain]

how about fear of balloons &&roaches?><

skipped that part,shall we?moving on,mum was emphazing on the usage of masks,masks and more about them.

i do not fantasized them && it's very sweaty and smelly?

i just needed mum to know that i need a sanitizer immediately.reason?cause it smells good.

the h1n1 cases now reduces the chances of me hanging out with my buddies during the holidays.it was almost as thin as an INCH?so what now?let me rot at home?

i needed a getwaway so badly && there's this kid who thinks he know's it-all.sorry your type of genre doesnt suits mine.metallic much?

i just wanna be a globetrekker,that's not too much right?squawking too much on the phone needs to be reduced,woman.

p.s/dont forget kash u owe me something from INDIA.no,like seriously.dont forget the betting part also?i may not be the one who rememebers everything,but it comes to $$$,i will.

there's soap,but where's the bubbles?

2009-08-15T15:54:00.004Z

mum made me drink SCOTT'S EMULSION.
it's all too orange.
i tried not to succumb and i did as what she told me too.
(:
it tastes good.i cant remember the last i drank it when i was a kid.
she used to threaten me not to play with my cousins if i'm still behaving like a six year old kid?
that was way back then.
on the brighter note,i sat down and did all my homework.
i love the weather these days.it's all gloomy and it just looks perfect.it means i had to add on my sleeping time.
fastigium is happening everywhere.yes,the whole region && country.urkk.
so please reschedule our school timetable and no lessons?
school's close,i gotta be the first who jumps && shed tears of joy.:D

1,2,3

2009-08-13T15:16:00.001Z

i'm officially wearing mask.(:

broken strings

2009-08-09T14:47:00.001Z

i'm bad at doing greetings.so let's just start whatever shit i'm gonna scribble here.

afternoon anyway.(;

the first thing that bugs me the whole time was like 'dude,you seriously damn lifeless'.

it's like you're being selfish and i'm sad to say you dont understand english.

i made it simple && clear here.i dislikes you.

aint that clear enough?

you send me tonnes of messages tht rather test my patience.

IGNORANCE && BLISS.

you pushes me to a limit where i felt like screaming your head off.

let's make a deal,shall we?or compromise or anything?

one thing for sure,i aint running/hiding from you.

you say hi,i'll go HEY.and that's the end of the stroy,kie?

FACEBOOK shoutout-sue me for being heartless.

i dont want you to misunderstand or anything but tht very statement i made specially for you was understandable to mankind.

it somehow makes me feel really inconvenience && not comfy when i'm around you.

owh,stop going around telling people that we fought and beg for sympathy?they dont buy it you'll know.

i wanna treat you like how i treat my other guy friends
i dont wanna tax you every single day
i hate it when u force me && tells me what to do
i dislikes it when u try your very best to get close to me
i love to say this that you are not a steady dude,as in you follow people everywhere.
where are your dignity,man??!!!
just stop bugging my life and u will gain peace.
stop apologising
.............................
just maintain the distance like how we used too.and be more understandable.(:

THAT'S ALL I GOTTA SAY.PEACE.<3

stares.

2009-08-08T14:36:00.002Z

a very big 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' shoutout

krishant menon
jeet thurai
donald selvam
enbah

happy sixteen hunnays,(:

cross country race

2009-08-08T13:39:00.004Z

veron,me,fateen

we both love playing see-saw since the swings were all occupied.=)

jumps into think air.i jump the highest,heeehhh.

posing maut again.kekeke.

the M-I-C groupie.lol.

najwa,ellyna,me

olivia,najwa,ellyna,me

us with the horse.sweet momoirs this one.

over the top

2009-08-04T15:09:00.002Z

something extreme happened.

all i can say is i'm happyhappyhappy.

cut the shy-ness.

you're killing me.

boy,you're cute.(:

i'm missing you already.

kayun's awesomed 16-teen partayyyyy(:

2009-08-04T14:44:00.002Z

THEME-PINK && GREEN

date-2.august.09

H-A-P-P-Y 16-TEEN BDAY KAYUN.

it's held somewhere downstairs near the pool && playground near her very own condo.=D

her aunty made her this cake.awww,lovely one.mwahxmwahx.

sindhu,me?fyi,she didnt actually follow the theme?pfttttt.dont mind her.

nabila,najwa,ellyna moreira,me.me.me.

finaly,group picture with diddy?crazy over him?nahh,i'm not.hehe.;)

p/s-i'm already missing the lamb there and the part where we wanna throw kayun in the pool,it was almost like raping her.funfunfun.

speechless

2009-08-01T13:24:00.000Z

i wanna,wanna touch you,

u wanna touch me too.:D

what's on the list today?

2009-07-30T14:36:00.003Z

no more mamak,no more stall across the street.ka-ching.this time we hit OLD TOWN.=D

3 asam laksa
1 curry mee
french fries
twister orange juice
xi mut milk tea
enrich chocolate

TOTAL:rm 43.60

i was having this severe headache tht i slept in class cause tchr was not present?

perfect lullaby

2009-07-28T14:38:00.003Z

i may not be perfect in every sense and may not look such a perfection queen in your eyes.

you want me to stay back,i did my part and no more fussy stuffs about you anymore.

i was bullied again with pillows on my face.='(

for saying his ears are huge?L-A-M-E.

p/s-majority guys feet are size 9

physics class was cancel && i almost fight with kath.sorry!

i know i've been a bitch lately,i cant barely control my emotions.

it's funny since my menstruation cycle is over for the month.

but,wtv la,we get back together again.hehe.

i got 80% for addmaths,like yeap,no kidd.=D

i was mood out again at the mamak shop && basically he made me feel better.

at first,it was awkward,like real real awkward.

but sooner........or later.everything was just fine?

and thanks kash also?for jumping around and made me laugh<3

the moment the seniors said you were right behind,and u popped out,i turned,but dont ever think i give a fck about you anymore.

i faced the fact && i did come back to reality.this is the truth.

caring && sharing???

pp/s-more supporters for MAN U fans,just reliased.

silence i kill you!!!

2009-07-26T14:13:00.005Z

p/s-dont we look alike?

i had to wake up early today due to not being present in tuition last tuesday.

had some chinese food in the morning but the first thing i did was message kash and listened to terayaki boyz on the line?

we did had our splendid time during lunch at the mamak which was few metres away from our actual location.

kash && my plan was to take a sip at starbucks at the nearby mall but since everyone's broke,hence we went to the nearest&& cheapest place we could find.

i'm sorry tht i actually had unfinished fried rice left,i actually mind jokes during eating.

you dont wanna see me spit every tiny crunches and pieces i've chewed.

donald couldnt make me stop laughing for his accent and his RUSSELL PETER'S jokes.

kath && him couldnt help themselves but to make fun of oh akhmed and his oh pretty 'SILENCE,I KILL YOU' phrase.

mr.MIKE was horny,yet again with his testestone hormones rising above the horizon.

he actually asks us to play an act at the PUDU station as a beggar to draw attention && see ourselves how many poeple would take notice and be a caring citizen.

me,with torn clothes?bad hair day?oh little cute face straying at the station?begging for money?

i couldnt imagine myself doing tht shit,but heck i bet one day's profit will be worthy.

some form 5 jerks disturbing & bugging me ever since the class ended,like i need a break?

you people are worth pennyless.go get a life.=/

no,seriously i wouldnt care less,like i'm not playing hard to get or smth,but these ppl needed some lessons,like u do your thing and i do mine.settle right?

my mind was running wild during biology and i told sir tht i was sleepy,half eyes open,and yawning 6 times in a row.i couldnt even see straight,and oh what's the function of medulla oblongota again?i hardly pronounce you well.

GOODBYE.

super-stardom

2009-07-26T14:00:00.006Z

venue-titiwangsa lake

time-7.30-10.00a.m

date-25/july/09

aim-to run up to 3km and to gain a healthy bod?this could be done once a yr.

this is my forth yr running for my cross-country event and i gotta be proud of myself for running super fast this yr.

although i'll never be able to make it for the top ten.never will.=/

well,at least i participated never knowing the fact i would make it round the lake.

some jerks on the bike was lifeless.

real healthy man/ladies/kids jog/exercise.you could see them everywhere?

but this yr i couldnt spot any oldies doing their tai-chi?hey,it's fun.

minus the part about olivia doing her watermelon stunts.=D

anyway,khairun needed somebody to volunteer for her KAMINICA shoot.

it seems tht for their group banner or smth.so we started off by taking pictures at the playground.it's huge.

and i fancy those see-saws and swings.i was happily humping,wrong term,with veron.

we were almost like old school,young undeveloped kids.

3 securities bombarded our group and we were told not to play since we are over-aged.

wtf,it's only for twelve and below?pathetic.

i didnt know where i've got the guts from,maybe inherited by my dad,i started fighting with one of the guards there.

i was furious.

they were about to send some warning letter or smth and even showed us,but tht was years before.dumb freaks.

in the end,we took a few shots with them && with the horse.

no warning letters && we did apologize.rawr.

p/s-i will sue miss jenn and divya for not attending.=D

messy

2009-07-25T15:28:00.003Z

it was totally a last minute plan,wait it was already noticed before.:D

but i ended up changing my mind about the plans to midvalley after school.wohooo.

highlight that,MV thrice in two weeks?insane+crazy+wacky.winks.

the whole idea was about watching HP6 but the show starts like 5-ish?&& tht's perfectly the timing for me to rush home.

running away from the misconceptions about me not telling them tht i sneaked out last friday?

thx kash for the secret recipe cake,i influenced her to buy choc indulgence kie?

we did sang after school and it was lucky tht we managed to improve,likewise we'll be screwed!

heart throbbing.

i'm starting to love to stay back after school with my pals.=D under some occasions.

maths was awesome and i love mrs.siva now.

somhow,i feels tht she initially potrays some motherly feelings towards me,like my addmaths teacher,mrs.ong.

one more thing,i always hated people hurting themselves by using sharp objects for instance blade?

they were many many of my pals love doing tht.

guessed i knew where i've gotten myself into it.

during his-story class yesterday,i was darn bored with divya.

since my nails were freaking long,this is because there were no prefects && no controlling session going on,i and divya scratched ourselfves and started making marks on the lefty && righty hand

the main aim/purpose/goal of doing this is to waste my plaster.

those cute little plaster with skulls on it.

&& i'm happily doing it till my skin started peeling off.

omfg,it hurts.i am never to hurt myself anymore but it was ridiculous of me?

i told divya tht when a man/guy/boy talks to me or confronts me,i cant help myself but to analyse them from up to bottom.

get what i meant?i' aint horny or stuffs like tht?i am not even forced to do so.

but my eyes randomly will look at some parts.

and at the same time,my history teacher was facing me,in front of me.

divya was on the same boat as me?:P

second monthly examination didnt blow my mind off.results made me happy.lovelove.;D

mixed up

2009-07-22T07:33:00.004Z

it was an instant relief to actually smell what i finally called FREEDOM?

exams over and the next thing i'm gonna crash the town soon with my barbaric humans.

i aint no prodigy,i keep reminding those who called me that,mostly and i dont find exams really appealing?in fact,i dont fancy them at all.

having to perform for next week's so called 'MINGGU BAHASA',we shall potray our love towards the BAHASA MALAYSIA language.why oh why cant we just do it in ENGLISH?

i sat recklessly at the school's nearest bus-stop near the church and i was panting heavily after a walk from the hall.

i confronted HER && pleased myself as the awkwardness moments are rather over.=D

i hear every line she spoke softly as i'm trying to interpret what's her real calling.

therefore,everything's finally settle after a week?

it was petrifying.

the thought of loitering after school just vanished into thin air,as i said to myself i rather be going home and doze off.

plus,i was working my butt off for the past 3 days accompanied by books day&& night.

i could never kiss goodbyes to them.

chit-chat with joelle over the phone about some plans this friday.

overall,i did manage some shopping at MIDVALLEY twice in a week and run some errands for mummy.

rushed last last friday with the babes thre to get some mask,and bought a bag from F.O.S.

and and a cute pink necklace.=D

not to mention,i saw so many everlasting tops tht totally feast me.

wahh,i'm hungry for tops now.

belly jiggles,eyes rolling,yoga u say?eyyyyyy.

exam fever strikes again.

2009-07-19T14:06:00.002Z

well,it's my second monthly test again which will be held on the 20th-22th.july.2008

MOAN-DAY-bm,english,history and maths

TUESDAY-which i definitely will skipped tuition again.

pj,addmaths,moral &&biology.

WEDNESDAY-physics&&chemistry.

p/s-farktards really know how to set the darn it schedule.smart pathetic bitches.

i'm out.

off to study&revise&more scratches on my head.

more durians&chipsters.=D

i hope i could see the brighter you

2009-07-17T05:40:00.001Z

DEAR partner in crime,

things really change lately.how last time we used to spend time talking to each other in class and blabbering about your sick enemy,and how we used to make fun laughing at people.not forgetting our potatoes and ur chicken rendang during recess.and now,it's a totally whole new environment to us.now,it's almost like we're total strangers.we dont use to spend quality time in class anymore eversince that incident u fought with D the other day.time flies,u're still static.

we tried to convinced u,but i know u were mad,sad and rather annoyed.

in tuition for addmaths,we did hang out at the mamak shop but still we werent capable to talk to each other.it's like a barrier which separates us both.i dont know how to confront you,but i know u were hurt about the MIDVALLEY shit last friday.u went for drama && public speaking,i wanna wish you but i'm afraid that you wouldnt even respond.

oh,:(

the time you said u look like a fool,and the way u screamed and shouted in class during biology scares the shit outta me.you fought badly with her,and i just wanna let u'll know that both sides were wrong including myself.i support nobody.and i'm on nobody's side.i knew almost what u guys were fighting although i werent there most all the time.i tried my best to distract myself from the conversation.many seen me crying.it was ugly.i dont wanna repeat the same thing again,sulk and cry.it was plain stupid to even think about it.but i knew my emotions went running wild,i was half-crying and laughing.

i wish everything's gonna be perfect like the way it is.

i.u. day [masquerade-the venetian carnival]

2009-07-15T10:41:00.002Z

divya bhullar,cheryl tan

veronica lew,me

du tryna show something,but there's nothing to show.wakakak.

random.

veronica,khairun,divya,du,me

du,veron,divya,khairun,me,kashmira.

my perfect lil' bitches.

convent girls with sayfol's international students.=D

2009-07-04T14:49:00.000Z

4 BAKAWALIAN'S.WE ROCK THE STAGE,DONT WE?

SPOT ME,FUGGLIES.:D

2009-07-01T06:26:00.000Z

it's funny how everyone listens&&reminisce MJ's songs over again.

the question is it's not the matter,why only over something when they're gone?

do we actually explore his background when he's alive?or when someone's dead,then only he/she always be remembered?

one more thing then i'm about to laugh about,teachers were eventually gossiping a lot about my class and perhaps others and they were talking about hitting boobs,noisy as always,and rude you say?

how much words need we not SPILL out or to shut us down?NEGATIVE.

we had new schedule and i'm fed up of it,probably it's the third time changing in a year itself.

second semester has already begun and i think i should concentrate on eating more vege.

how does tht sounds?khairun brings her vege everydy to school.this is HEALTHY.

i influenced everyone to eat rice during recess.correction,POTATO.

great stuff,i wont be able to see aunt JUDY,ADRIAN&&IVAN this saturday.

this is devastating++frustration.

dad is packing his belongings cause he's flying off sooner later.

blame it all on the tonnes of projects which he had to tckr of.

mummy is gonna be the PRESS of the fly and i bet she's handling everthing upside down.

she's nothing compared to the lighting,she strikes it better.

i guess the whole world knows about B now.

i thought of giving up hope and B's not making any move.so it's spontaneously hard.

yeah,i gotta dwelt the shyness in me.haha.no,i aint shy.it's NERVOUS u say.

what's our state now?god knows how it's gonna work.bad or good?i hope it doesnt affect me a single bit.i dont need a man,says NIKKI ages ago.:D

imy.

what should i say about my bangs?dead.

dotsdotsdots.scribblesscribbles.

2009-06-28T14:31:00.000Z

CARNIVAL SMK CONVENT.=D

2009-06-25T14:07:00.000Z

evening,almost to midnight now.

long lecture by miss R about being rather noisy and not being able to pass up homework on time.

it's already six months now&&we're suppose to change for the better it seems,but same old story.

good thing,i owe no1 any ice-cream now.haha.=D [wink]

i feel rather annoyed && pissed easily.

it all happen to fast.blame it on the big letter,P.

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN..MIA.

out of 14 coupons,i managed to sell only 5.how pathetic could tht be?

i am eager to knw what position&&ranking i get in class cause i knw i work my ass out a lot during the mid-term exam.

grades were good except BM && MORAL.i am still not satisfied.best part,th fact is i got A1 for PHYSICS,like OMG.

this is weird,but i think i got a tiny pimple on my knee.it hurts when i squad.

did PE today,had some stuffs going on with gymnasts shit.it was fun.

we were suppose to do && perform a small performance with using the hulla's.i think ribbons work BEST.love the twirling&more swirling.<3

2009-06-21T13:43:00.000Z

SMP IU DAY [DYNASTY OF CHINA]

the whole bunch of SMK CONVENT kids.

lion dance=D

olivia,mia,me,divya,atikah,bravinah

me&&mia with the pole.

bottom til upper-diyana,mia,me,olivia,divya.

the 4 brats

this part was hilarious.spot me&&divya there?we were suppose to jump+dance???!!!

us with the president.